Sunday, April 5, 2020

Famous Last Words: Deep Thoughts

Hello Everyone,

I haven’t written one of these in a while so I thought since I have a lot of content in my head, that I would share my thoughts with you all.

These past few weeks on lockdown has brought out the social bug in me. I have the biggest desire to catch up with people.

Last night, I spoke with my long time friend, Keziah, just like any other night; we don’t talk everyday but whenever we do, it’s like picking off where we last ended. I absolutely love that about our friendship. We catch each other up on our life events and give each other advice. Well, last night got a little deep. I’ve never been a person to talk about my friendship with someone; it’s just awkward for me. I believe that the strength of our friendship doesn’t need to be said with words but instead seen with actions. To my surprise, Keziah was a little confused about our friendship.

I did something that I don’t usually do - tell her how important she is to me.

To keep it relatively short, tell your friends and loved ones how much they mean to you. Being on lockdown, we have all the time in the world.

My favorite feeling in this world is talking to someone about old things. I love talking about high or middle school with someone from that time of my life. There are two sides to every story so it’s always interesting to hear what the other person thought or felt at that time.

When we die, we look back on our lives and think “what have I done in my life?” Historical figures and even people now live their lives so that they have a legacy. When they die, the thought of them lives within people that they’ve affected. With that being said, we have countless versions of ourselves within the minds of others. Therefore, when we die, we’re not truly forgotten. Treat people respectfully, help others and be true to yourself.

When I was in middle school, I didn’t have much self-confident so it was difficult talking to new people that weren’t one of my close friends. I strongly viewed myself as an awkward and weird child that I thought everyone else did as well. However, Keziah told me otherwise. She would bring me up in conversations with her others friends and they said “Oh I remember her. She was cool.” Maybe “cool” is just a generic comment people say when they barely know someone but it low key touched my heart.

I’ve been trying to get into contact with a friend from my childhood. It’s proving to be a little difficult just because he’s a very low-profile guy. Plus, it doesn’t help that he’s in Kansas. I got into contact with his brother whom I haven’t seen in so long too. I asked about him and his mother. I’m currently waiting for his response about his brother.

I’ve come to realize that there are so many things left unsaid and unaddressed in my life. I’m not sure about the rest of you but looking back, I regret not saying how I felt. Now, there’s multiple untied ends that I have to deal with.

If you like someone, tell them exactly how you feel.
If you miss someone, tell them.

In life, we usually only get one opportunity. Take that opportunity and run with it.

When you seem to hate everything and everyone around you, just remember that your life isn’t always going to be the same. Hold your friends and family a little tighter. Be grateful that you have them in your life because one day, they won’t be around anymore. If you don’t have any friends (like me), don’t be afraid to put yourself out there to meet new people.

Avoid the Regret of Not Doing
Source: Doctor

1 comment:

  1. April! I have to admit, when I clicked another one of your stories, I didn’t expect this but I do agree with you. Social distancing can be hard I hope we’re all managing well. I agree with your breakdown of legacy I think for a lot of people they generally see that legacy in the form of family and children. Thanks for sharing!